Librarian With The Strength to Cope with Tourette Syndrome
By Ashaya Nelson
“Twitch! Twitch! Twitch!” the crowd screamed when high school freshman Josh Hanagarne stood at the free throw line.
The game depended on him making the shot.
Hanagarne, who had physical and vocal tics that would later be identified as Tourette Syndrome, stood in front of the basket with tears running down his face.
The ball made it into the basket and his team went home with a win. But he didn’t leave without flipping off the crowd.
Hanagarne shares his story with people all around the world.
He visited the Mark Twain House & Museum Thursday to talk about his book, The World’s Strongest Librarian: A Memoir of Tourette’s, Faith, Strength, and the Power of Family.
Hanagarne, a bodybuilder, said he learned a lot about himself by writing a memoir.
“Wasn’t trying to be a writer, this never was supposed to happen,” said Hanagarne.
Now a librarian in Salt Lake City, Hanagarne always was engrossed in books, and as a kid, tried to find the largest book to read.
He read his first Stephen King book in fifth grade and though his mother banned King’s book from their home, he continued to sneak them in.
Now, Hanagarne said, he barely sleeps, reading a book each day.
The night of that basketball game, Hanagarne asked his parents what was wrong with him, and he got the diagnosis of Tourette’s.
During his childhood, it wasn’t a big deal, he said. In eighth grade it became vocal, and he began to get bullied. As he got older, his condition worsened, and even became violent.
Trying to hold in his Tourette’s, he said, “feels like that most intense sneeze.”
A mysterious man had an impact on his life. Adam T. Glass, a U.S. Air Force veteran who suffered a brain crushing injury, helped him learn to move his body in ways that brought relief.
Hanagarne explained that Glass could somehow see where the pain came from in someone’s body, and how to fix it. Glass helped Hanagarne by having him use a five-pound dumbbell, and by moving his wrist.
Today, Hanagarne is a happy family man. He said his mother came home from church one day and told him she’d found the perfect wife for him. When he met his wife, he could barely speak.
She did not hear his true voice until eight months after their wedding.
After trying for years to have a child, they had Max, a son who is now five years old.